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yay 2011. not-that-fun. yeah sooo I dont think that even 1 person, cares about me. I mean no one cares man, its so sad. its like when im about to tell them or her or him a story they're just like. "ummm okay then lol" come on -_- sad enough right. even when im not in a good mood at all no one understand me, im not asking that every body have to care. but .................... come on -_- its like theres no one there for me.

its like, when the time is come. the death. will they like crying? or sad? will they come to your funeral? will someone you love will remember you forever? will your hangout friends missing you? will your classmates feel pittty? will they remember you about your goodnes or they will remember you with your bad side? will they feel like haunted? will they feel like lost? will they who hurts you feel sorry? I dont know. I dont think so.

I spend the rest of my life asking my self, "whos the one person that will lost me for a bestfriend?" "whos the one person will miss me?" "is there one person that cares about me?" and "whos my bestfriend? whos my real friend?"

its like......... im sick, im tired. i wanna move from this village, this city, this province, this island, this country. I wanna travel the world. I wanna change. I wanna be in a place where someone will care, where someone is not underestimating me, where no bad guys, no hurts. I blog like i always be the victim. Im not two faced or something i will be honest, theres a time i wanna be the bad guy. why? cause i get hurted. Im sick of this shits. i dont wanna be the victim, i tried. but thats not make you better, thats not make you cool, thats not make you great.

everyone sees me as a happy person or wtvr, but actually im a freakin sensitive kid. no one knows me inside. no one. i never told anyone. why? cause i dont want to. i dont wanna look like a wussy. no i dont. its like, you hurt me so what? you dont care right? cause you think its not a big deal. but it is, it is big. im not the type of person that will tweet about my tears, like "oh my god im going to cry AGAIN" i mean, i dont like that. i mean is that important? -_-

oh man -_______- my life is that bad? oh no. hell no. i have hangout friends. but i dont think they really care, or they're real. i dont know. im just sick and i wanna move. kay thanks bye.

holiday? holyday? holey-day

holey-day? remember? i feel holey. harry potter? yeah right you got it. oh god im effing bored now. nothing to do and fyi i play facebook's games. like cityville happyisland and many more. im turning into a dork. uhmm not a dork ding, dork-ier. mehihi. i dont wanna say this but i miss school! i miss my friends, bestfriends, classmates huuuuu. teachers..... no i dont miss them, teachers.

so this holiday I didnt go anywhere, blah boring much? yes right. I miss jogja I miss the foods there I miss the shops I miss the roads I miss everything and I miss my brother. kkkkinda hihi. I miss bandung too! the fo ofcourse and my bro too but still, KINDA. but actually I miss vacation. huaaaaa. btw I miss jakarta too. why? idk. just miss it.

punya rencana buat jalan2? huff