ulala

i dont wanna do that. im not into it. i thought i am. but im not. so this is pretty confusing. it makes you happy, and it makes me happy when i see you smile. but in the other side it doesnt feel right. its not who iam, not what i want to do. but actually its a really good thing. and i would be a fool if i let it go. but i cant make everyone happy.

im a pretty selfish kid. but i hv to grow up and learn, right. to be a better kid. i mean girl. or woman. nah, be a better girl. uhm nah be a better person. theres a point where i wanna be a lady, wearing heels, dresses, make up, dye my hair and something like that. but, thats not who i am. im a teenager(kid) who really loves to eat, but dying to be skinny. wearing sneakers or crocs wherever i go. a loose tees and a short batik pants. and stuff.

but, people DO judge out there. and im scared getting judge. cause everything you do or say, no matter how good you are, people will always judge you and get a different 'message' from what you do. so what im saying is WE cant make everyone happy. so get ready to be judged, hated, loved and else. but what if im not ready. yeah if im not ready ill make a post like this. yeah uhm see. the truth is im not ready getting judged. no one wants to be hated riiiiight?

so if i did something that make one of you or all of you angry and disappointed and annoyed and else. why dont you try to talk to me, so i can be a better person? i think im a pretty open minded kid. uhm ok. blahbye