ohhhlala

lol laughing at my previous posts. oh my god. full of drama lol.

do not give a fuck about it yee. it was just a........

what. uhm. idk. well bubuyy

sjnakdmxcskefd

fuck this shit why did i post this previous post

what a stupid idiot crazy freak insane pity girl.

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NOOOOO WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? :(

i get angry easily lately......and i hate it. it feels like i cant control myself.

i hate my self for that, i feel like unable to anything right.

its like theres an evil in me that teasing me every single second.

i hate being angry all the time.

i hate being unable to control myself

i hate being inpolite

i hate screaming when im angry.

it feels like im under a heavy pressure. yes it feels like....

i feel holey, empty and not normal.

yes it feels like i hate everybody my family, friends.....

i feel empty :(((((((((((((((((

im not that cheerish one now :(((((((((((((

i feel like im holding back all my feelings

it feels like that you wanna cry and scream and hurting urself and crashing things at the same time.

"Feels like you wnt to stop feeling sad and blue but you just can't. It hurts you inside, you don't cry but you feel an emptiness inside" THISSSS

ah so true :(

i hate it that no one theres for me, no one will stand in my back.

idk what to sad for or what its just killing me.

this feelingss. this complicated and unsolvable feelings hurt me.

if i tell the world itll never enough.

is it the time that i have to give people a sign?

a sign to die? am i gonna die soon? :(((((((((((((((((((

i feel unwanted, yes i have many friends but still i dont feel like wanted.

like no one needs me. no one likes me. no one wants me.

im not the one whos gonna cry for a simple thing.

when i cry. i cry.

it feels like theres a big hole on my chest.

a hole that full of emptiness and hateness.

i want someone to care bout my feelings. they treat me like i dont have any feelings.

like ill always be okay with everything.

im not. yes base on this post im so full of ego, im so childish.

yessssss i am. i want someone to care about me. idont need everybody

but at least there is that person who truly cares about me and know me

and here to listen. to be there when i needem

it feels like i dont deserve anything good.

like i dont deserve any happiness.

i feel so fragile. im the one who cant look into your eyes and tell people how i feels.

i always fake it. i hate to fake everything.

its like when im nice to some people i dont get it back

i mean if someone nice to others, that other people will nice at you too

i mean like it was never enough for everyone

or god justt hates me and my sins

and wont let me feels that truly happiness.

i feel so fake right now. everybody hates me.

"youre such a spotlight seeker why u even post this shit to a blog"

cause my blog is my bestest friend. it always been there for me.

its loyal. and never dissapointed me.

i dont really have a friend to share my feelings with,

i just feel they dont really wanna listen .

and i just feel like percuma cerita kalo mereka emg gamau denger ato responannya cuman kyk hmm and stuff

it feels like i wanna punch myself. idk whats in me now.

but it hurts too much.

yea im such a drama queen blabla

BUT I DONT FUCKING KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS NOW.

YOU GUYS DONT KNOW A THING BOUT ME OR MY FEELINGS.

ITS JUST SO UNDESCRIBABLE.

I CANT FIND RIGHT WORDS.

i just feel lefted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it feels like shit.

am i crazy? like crazy crazy? like freak? idk oh well wow theres a lot of tears there far.

i feel friendless. brainless. everything less.

tengteng

hello you, well hello i miss you. for this past 3 years we stuck for like 24/7.

3 years. im having you around in class. every single day. we laugh we learn together. i know your bad side your dirty secret. well you know mine. ahhhh i miss that time so much.

kalo belajar kita bisa jadi pemales bgt, serius, dan ya gitu. i need someone like you. well even though youre not that good listener, i miss curcoling with you :(

aku kangen cerita ttg hal yang ga gitu penting, sekarang gabisa nobody listen.

aku kangen cerita ttg feelings aku yg walopun aku gabegitu terbuka youre the one who understand.

aku kangen kita dikelas belajar sambil ngobrol2, ngobrolin apa gitu

aku kangen kita belajar bareng, kau ngajarin aku.

aku kangen pas kita bt kita dengerin ipod

aku kangen kita ngedubbing lagu "dansa"

aku kangen aku ngomel2 ttg guru2 ke kau dan kau yg nyabarin aku haha

aku kangen dilarang makan sama kau

aku kangen kita makan mi bareng2

aku kangen kita jalan ke bus bareng2

aku kangen makan ke simpang raya bareng2 dan order sambel ijo

aku kangen kita susah pulang bareng2

aku kangen kita jalan kaki pulang kerumah bareng2

aku kangen ke rumah kau hari sabtu

aku kangen kita pesen taksi ke rmh maria ato ismi buat les bareng2 dua kali seminggu

aku kangen kita pesen taksi pulang bareng2 dua kali seminggu selama 3 taun ini

aku kangen kita photoboothan bareng2

aku kangen kita makan di rcc bareng2

aku kangen kita cerita hati ke hati wkakaakka di rcc

aku kangen ke salon bareng2

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aku kangen nonton2 kayak cozy artis2 bareng2

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aku kangen ngeliatin bulu idung kau kalo kau ketawa

aku kangen ngeliat ketek kau hahah

aku kangen kita masak2 bareng

aku kangen omongan bego kita

aku kangen jaman2 kau belom pake bb dan ngejek2 org bban

aku kangen gangguin2 kau

aku kangen lasagna pinot........

aku kangen kesel karena kau

aku kangen kita karoke glee bareng2 di itot kau

aku kangen omongan sok dewasa kita

aku kangen kita mimpi2 masuk sma dan ikut debate, ikut sispala hahah

aku kangen kau ngancem2 aku diet.......

aku kangen kangen kangen band.

aku kangen 10.10.09

aku kangen kauuuuuuu, aku kangen terlalu banyak...............

emang kayaknya pas kau disini aku sering ganggu2in kau, itu karena kau temen deket yg aku punya yg aku bisa omongin semuanya. aku takut pas kau marah ato ngambek. ciyus. makanya kalo kau marah aku balik marah dan ngambek ama kau. tp ujung2nya aku jg yang minta maaf :|

oiya kau temen yang pertama bikin aku kehilangan . hahahahah ciyus, aku jadi mewekan gara2 kau. waktu kau kasi tau aku kau mau pindah, aku sedih nya yaaa sedih takut biasa dll tp aku ga nangis. pas kita di rcc di dufan aku mikirin lagi gimana kalo gada kau karena aku kemana2 biasanya pasti ama kau,....... eh taunya di rcc gr2 kau nangis, aku nangis.

di dufan baru kerasa banget, eh ternyata kita nangis2 sambil pelukan di deket pintu keluar malem2 di tengah2 umum. and im not gonna lie tp disitu aku sedih. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa malu. mana ada sodara aku. hu. well even if you dont miss me, ill be here missing you bul hahahahahah.

oke dan aku ngarep banget ada yang ngegantiin kau disini buat aku hehe :)

lopya.