hey now now

well im still mad, BUT my last post is kinda... weird childish and pathetic. yeah theres still many chances, many possibilities and stuff. so what im gonna do is, chasing my other BIG dreams and maybe i need a shock therapy. i hv a krupuk mental eh ahahahhaha. so yeah

dear farah you have to learn how to accept failure even tho ure always fail. it doesnt mean ure good at accepting it. so u better LEARN HOW TO ACCEPT things. and farah you are so sensitive and annoying, even more these days so you better shut your mouth and go to hell. nahhh :| and farah you hv to hv a chinese mental. theyre hard worker and wont stop till they got it.

so my dear dear farah, the point is you hv to learn more.

AHAHAHA dafuq. nahhh idk so yeah hm.. actually i hv many dreams. and ill tell you in the next post when my mood is getting better:|

dreaaaaaaamo

I ACHIEVE THINGS FOR THAT THING. now what do i get? im wasting my fucking tiiiiiiiiime. im the ONE whos excited about it and now IM THE ONE WHO CANT GIVE IT A TRY? IS IT FAIR? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! please.god.help.

i got this thing ON that day. and this thing couldnt wait and its pretty important. but that day is the try out day. so im in a dilema. but since this thing has bothering me A LOT and i hv to be responsible i HAVE to choose thing thing over that day. so it is VERY VERY VERY impossible for me to get home on that day and give it a fuckin try.

you know what? i achieve things so i can get into THAT thing. but why is it happening to me!!! after all this time. its about letting go my dream. ITS ABOUT LETTING GO MY DREAM!!!!! they said "chase your dream till you get it" n stuff. i TRY to chase it but this dream keeps running and left me behind.

i always thought that this is my dream, my path, my destiny. but this is just... sick. ahahahaha i sound pathetic :| god help me give me another chance. at least give me a try. please.

and YOU!!! so YOU think you can COME into my FUCKIN LIFE and TELL me HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE? NO. now, fix yourself first THEN ill let you HELP me to fix mine. kay bye

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let me start this post with a laugh. ahahhahahahahhaha. a BIG laugh. HAHAHAHAHUHAUSDHIAUAHI. so yeah, this post is dedicated to someone. but that someone is not that "someone" get it? so... actually its suppose to be a galau post tho. but yeah.

one day, when i feel not good enough and about to quit. when the world almost eat me alive. when i feel someone hv to replace me. i was just thinking about him and my future. i dont care what the-other-he will say.

cause..

he is the ONE, who always believe in me. since the first time i start. he never blame me. he, Believes in me. but actually i dont believe in my self. and i feel bad. he is so positive. when i made a mistake he didnt "ure wrong. u shouldve... u er.. u shouldve known.." but he said "lets learn together" and now im scared i will let him down. i remember when im about to be replaced. hes... kinda 'fight' (not that kind of fight, u know what it mean kan) for me.

hes a friend, bro, and mentor for me at the same time. and I will try my best to not to let him down.

btw this post, is not that lovie dubie post. its normal kind of post cause i feel bad.

bye ngok ngok.