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WHEN U TRY UR BEST BUT U DONT SUCCEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD.ILL TAKE CARE OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. HUHUHUHUHUHUHU DENGERIN ITUNES YG DI SHUFFLE ITU RASANYA KAYAK PENGEN NGE NEXT-IN TERUS. OH YA JADI AKU NYAPA BBRP 7 ORG DI YM AKU YG AKU BNR2 KENAL LALU YG JAWAB CUMAN 4 AH SEDIH AJA SIH...... INI KAN BARU JAM SETENGAH 1 PAGII!!!!!!!!

HIKS HIKS HIKS. HUHUHUHU. GAADA BUNYI TANGISAN YANG KAYAK GITU. HERAN GMN COBA NULIS BUNYI NANGIS KALO BBM? HIKS HIKS HIKS MLS AJA SIH BACANYA. HUHUHUHU KETAWA APA NANGIS SIH INI. ADUHHHHHHH INI KOK JADI PENGEN BOKER LAGI SIH. MALESIN AJA.

udah ah capek ngeblog pake capslock.......... aku tuhyaaaaa kangen sama kamuuuuuuuuu. eh kamu ni siapa. aku tuh kangen sama akuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, aku yang dulu pas masih smp. aku yang sma malesin, bikin capek. gadeng..... aku kangen............ green tea latte yg rasanya beneran green tea latte. ga kebanyakan susunya kayyak di jeko. gak kebanyakan esnya kayak di eksekswan. ga sebiasa di starbaks. aku maunya yang bener2 kerasa kayak di kedai ramen ling ling.

ohiya waktu itu, aku liat cewe itu. kenal sih nggak. cuman aku tau dia. dia di label bagus. dan dia emang bagus, pinter.aku liat dia pas april kalo ga salah. ato maret. trus aku stalk ahahah. tapi kalo cantik sih ngga. dia gendut. tapi somehow omongan dia tuh berisi nginspire orang. nah ini aku ngeblog kayak ada aja yang mo baca celotehan segini ga jelasnya. ga BERBOBOT. dan...... aku mau jd kayak dia..... otaknya bagus..... socialnya kayaknya bagus.........

tp disisi lain aku mo kayak cewek yg itu tp aku gak kenal dia. aku aja gatau dia ada di bumi ini sblm sebulanan yg lalu. dia ga cantik. ga pinter. dia rada gendut tapi temennya banyak yang ganteng. hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha. geli aja .

yaampun farah :((((((((((((((((( kapan sih kamu bisa bersyukur dan ngehargain apa yang Allah kasih ke kamu? yaampun farah, manusia tu ga pernah puas! dan aku ini masih sma jadi aku masih rada labil dan mencari jati diriku #ea yaampun farah, kamu tuh ya kamu. yaampun farah, aku ya aku, tp kalo aku bs jadi aku yang lebih baik, kenapa nggak? yaampun farah, suka2 kamu aja sih aku ga peduli jg. yaampun farahm kalo semuanya suka2 aku, aku jg ga bakal kayak gini skrg. mungkin aku udh jatoh ke lobang kegelapan dari lama. yaampun farah, jangan sok dramatis gini dong. yaampun farah. stop ngomong sendiri.

udah ya desperate momentnya udh abis.

wait, im back

waiiiit, im so bored so imma post this un-necessary thing. so whats with the sims 3 and i????? every time i install it, it will fail..... and fail...... and fail. fuuuuuu. so theres the sims 3 for mac that i bought in mol ambassador and when i got home i installed it for like more than 20 times. but everytime i finished the installation, I COULDNT PLAY IT.:(((((((((( and a few days ago i borrowed the sims 3 for windows from anggun. ive installed it for like 10 times. but its still wouldnt work.

I AM DYING TO PLAY THE SIMS 3 :'| but theres just something between me and the sims 3, is it love? hate? or ...... frienemies........... why do i hv to be soooooo weird god. im soooooooo bored right now. my supposed-to-be-smartphone is dumb. the bbm wont work. for like 4 hours now? fuk it.

and im dying to hv my vacatioooooooooooooooooon. im dying to hv that super-hot-summer-body-like-in-instagram. im dying to be a smart ass in school, or.... in the world:|. im dying to yell and slap at someone at the same time. but the most important thing..... im dying to have you............ LOL JK. im dying to hv a money tree :p

well.............................. uhm. theres a lot of wishes and questions that i wanna post in this stupid read-able blog. but its just.... too hard..... to........ type it...... in the right way.............. u know what i mean? fukit

that awkward moment when you really want to boker but youre just too lazy to get up and poop. okayyy be right back, imma poop for a sec.

yeah. im back. but not lega enough. ahahahahhaha. i want to thank god for the beautiful creatures he made, so i just stalked *uhm* a handsome..... boy no man no young man. ea. and it makes me happy.......... seeing a handsome kid, is.... weird. WAIT THIS POST IS WEIRD. it sounds weird. i look like a creep. okay thats it. no posting.

BIYYYYEEEEE

Alhamdulillah

yay. alhamdulillah dpt ipa, but somehow im not that happy. im not that satisfied. nilaiku naik seluncuran... *if u know what i mean* dari dulu, mo rapor mid ato smster aku ga pernah dpt rata2 dibawah 80. dulu aku jg pas di f rank 20an jg rata2nya 80an keatas trs. somehow, aku ngerasa gagal gabisa mempertahankan ato menaikkan apa yg dulu udh aku dpt. berarti kan aku makin bego...........................

aku tau sih kalo aku ngeliat kebawah harusnya aku lebih bisa bersyukur. tapi, gimana ya beda aja rasanya. ga lega, ga seneng.

hela

aku sayang 10.3 makasih bgt buat 2 hari ini ph sudirman, breaks, billiardnya, handbreak abal2nya aldo, taman randunyaa hehe. seruuuuuu. barusan diajak sepedaahan lg bareng tomi ucok aldo tp mls ban kempes... krik. yay besok hari penentuan. nay besok tau ipa ato ips. gatau mau jd apa kalo masuk ips. bukannya gmn, aku gatau mo jd apa kalo masuk ips takut nyesel :( dan pengen bs bikin pp mm bangga krn mrk pengen aku msk ipa walaupun cuman sbts ipa, at least aku harusnya mampu.

bismillah aja buat besok. mlm ini aku galau dengerin tulus. dulu dengerin tulus dibandung enak2 skrg jd kangen sm bandung huhu. tulus oke bgt sih :( why cant i have many talents? omg i dont have any talent :o

sewindu oke bgt lah. sengkau lupakan akuuu semua usahaku semua pagi kita semua malam kitaaa oooo tak akan lagiiiiii ku menunggumu di depan pintu daaaaaan tak ada lagiii tutur manis merayumu *gitar tengtong* setiap pagi ku menunggu d depan pintu siapkan senyuum terbaikkuuu huhu lagunya oke coy

HALAH. post labil ini. yaudah dada, mau bersyukur sama Allah.

mom

happy birthday mama <3 walaupun kadang mama ngeselin, sensi, manja, cerewet :p mamah tu jg perhatian bgtttt, baik, supporting, selalu ada dan tau kalo aku lg sedih, you always do. :( youre a mom, a heroine, a bestfriend, a sponsor:p, youre everything. hari ini, aku bersyukur sama Allah mama masih bisa diberi umur panjang dan semoga ditahun2 berikutnya mama masih bakal selalu ada buat aku, papa masabi ama masfadhil.

aku gabisa ngebayangin dan gamau ngebayangin kalo mama ato pp ato masabi ato masfadhil ga ada. theyre a big part of my life, selalu ada mereka di setiap 1 sel dalam tubuhku #ea.

jadiii tadi aku ama papa ngasih surprise buat mamah. jd kemaren sblm driving kt ke takadeli beli kue terus ke ciput mo beliin mama kado (kado dr aku) tp bingung mo beli apa trs mo beli baju eh bajunya gaada ukuran 1m 1xl padahal mama l yaudah deh dr pd kelamaan takut mamah curiga:p kita balik dgn alibi beli tekwan, emg beli sih :| terus tadi pagi jam 5an kt kasih deh kuenya sambilnya nyanyi bday song. terus mamah seneng senyamsenyum. ahahahaha.

lega bgt rasanya walaupun cuman kue tp bs ngerayain bareng2 sm pp mm, cuman kurang mas abi ama mas fadhil. hahahahah terus kt solat subuh (yay!) dan abis itu mama asik main bb tmn2nya ngucapin -_- trs yaudah kt potong kue!!!!!! hihi trs ada wishes kt bikin vn ke masabi ama masfadhil :p:p mungkin mereka masih tdr tadi :|

aku janji kalo udh gede nanti, aku bakal beliin mamah kado yg aku tau mama bakal suka. tp ga sekarang, duitku ga cukup:| nanti mah. janji bgt lah. buat papah masabi masfadhil aku jg janji bgtlah. u guys r everything to me. i love u like a fat kid love ice cream (Read: i love u guys n ice cream)

tootles!!!!!!

asd

uh everytime i see pak.s im terrified. cause his face is just... scary. and it reminds me of debate. talking about debate... so i decided to quit next year. cause...... its just not my thing. not what i wanna do. im not that debate kid who own a debate soul. so yeah im letting it go... hihii

and let see, sophomore year #ea is almost over. so yeahhh 4 more days and my future will be written... on that shittie paper. so yeah lets pray for the best, and IM WAITING FOR MY VACATION.

oh ya i cried.... at school. HAHAHAHA. cause..... my japanese teacher didnt accept my assgnmnt that i made for 3 fucking straight hours? (powerpoint in japanese) i hv to change the language in my lppy, i have to read (seeing the symbol for one by one cause idk any hiragana), i have to make 3 chapters that include the vocab, the grammar, the examples and stuff. so yeah. it was complicated. and hard to do. so yeah

and yeah at last i can make her accept it... tomorrow. well I LOVE MY TEACHERS, THEY ARE MY INSPIRATION ;)